With every season there is growth and then there is death. And then to take one more step, death comes in many ways.

If you are a Mother, do you remember when your child was first born? Do you remember the love you felt for that child. I do, I remember my heart just exploding with joy, pride and love.

I am a cross roads in my life where a death of a relationship has occurred. I fell empty, sad, lost. mad, sad, and most of all heart broken. To remember all of that love that was there in the beginning and to wonder where did it go? How could it have all gone so wrong. Why, why didn't I do things different. Why am I a failure.

Wow Time is flying by.

It was just Christmas just yesterday I am sure of it. How, when, where and why did it get to be June already? I guess it is true then it was said "Time stands still for no man", not even a woman.....he he he.
I have been enlightened to so many things in the past six months.
1) I am not afraid to live on my own... (Not that I am getting rid of Lee.)
2) That buying our funeral plans is not so bad.
3) Even if you try and try some things can't be changed, even if they need to be.
4) Not every thing is as it seems.
5) That owning a motorcycle at 52 and getting your motorcycle lincense at 53 is awesome and powerful.
6) If you have a windshield you don't get bug between your teeth.....he he.
7) At this stage in life there is so little time and sooooo many things to do.....

This the Season........

Well as you can see from the date of my last blog on here, it has been a long time. So I thought I should take a minute and up date a few things.
Life is back to as normal as normal gets. Lee and I are mostly content to be old fudedudies!
We have had some great times and out comes this last year.
We both bought motorcycles at the end of Aug., I have my learners permit, and am so looking forward to next spring when I can ride like a crazy woman. Lee and I have some great idea's on where we are going to take rides next year. '
Never in my 52 years was it a thought that I would have my own motorcycle. But the little rides I have went on this fall, I should have got one years ago.
Amanda has had a fairly rough year. I don't want to go into to deep, but she is doing as good as she can right now. She has a job that keeps her very busy. I have had one of her bosses from the company she works for tell me " she is very valuable to them" She is an awesome worker.
Sidney, Shalese, and Britton are growing up so quickly and they are awesome kids. I love them so much. And I have a great time with them.
Megan and Scott have had such a better year then 2009.
Lincoln is healthy, and is learning new thing every day. Bless the Lord for his blessing to Lincoln.
Scottie, Savana and Luke, are as busy as ever. These three kids did awesone the four months while Lincoln was in the hospital.Their Mom and Dad only missed one day of the four months Linkie was there. And the three kids where visitors in many different angels who cared for them durning this time. I have had some really fun times with these kids. There is not a time I sleep over do I have a free side durning the night. There is always a fight to see who gets on of my sides to sleep by.
Kellie and Ashley are busy raising those three boy and a little girl who is just rough and tumble as the boysl They are all active and very curious. They have plenty of energy. They love everyone and are happy to visit anyone and get to know anyone. One of the sadest things these little guys do to me is to cry and cry when I leave cause they want to come with me. There is nothing sadder to leave those crying babies.
There is never a dull minute about Skeemerland......

Every Day Life Is a Learning Experiance

This last week has been a whole new WORLD for little ole' Delta, Utah and an eye opener to me.
With the shooting of Officer Jose Greathouse Fox, I have witnessed first hand how someone actions can greatly have the ripple affect. Officer Fox was shoot by an illegal for Mexico who had just made a drug deal.
Tuesday morning was a buzz with police, media and the silent sadness of the lose of a hard working, loving and very strong woman. She had grown in so many ways and had picked her shelf up and had made good with her life. She had made friends with many, many citizen's in Delta and Millard County. Doing her job, she was shoot and killed by, a man who should not have been here in the USA. I have no solution on how to fix that problem, so I will leave it alone.
But it today I made some phone calls to let the local restaurants of Delta aware of the number of officers who will be present for the funeral on Monday. As I made the calls, one of them was the Taco Shop here in Delta. I talked to the owner and explained the reason of the call. After telling him about Monday, he said to me How sorry he was about the shooting and how much they as a community felt bad about it. I immediately said Please don't apologize to me! That this could have been done by anyone, even a white person. After hanging up I cried. It made me feel so bad that he felt like he needed to apologies for another persons mistake just because he is of the same race.
I hope that other Deltans will take note and make the Hispanic here feel the love and not the generalize all of them one lump.

MERRY CHRISTMAS

GOD BLESS US EVERYONE.......

MERRY CHRISTMAS

One thing I have been made well aware of the past year, is that life is for ever changing. That with each passing day, each passing hour and even to the passing minutes there is change.
I am so grateful for having a strong family. I have seen some heavy burdens placed on us this past year. And through it all we have survived. I have said many time this year that it is all a TEST of FAITH. I truly believe this and have seen it with my own two eyes.
Lee is fighting every day to keep on trucking. He will continue to do so until they tell him "NO MORE". Thank you for all you do. No one can still keep up with you.
Grateful to have a job in these time and happy to do it.
Amanda has made great strides in the past few years. Even to the point of owning her own home now.
And to be raising some of the nicest children. She is also a hard worker and keeps The Pizza house a float. She has done remarkable!
Megan and Scott have had a very long year. So many things have crossed their path. So many hardships and yet they have grown so close. Each knowing how it feels to have lost a piece of them. Scott I am so proud of the way you have stood strong for your family. You have been the solid foundation during some very trying times. Meg, God bless your strong spirit. You have lived through one of the things that would have dissolved me. Losing a child has been one of my greatest fears. And to have gone through it and then to have had Lincoln so early! You are my hero.
Brandon and Shayla you to have came a long way baby. Still newly weds and to have taken on the responsibility of owning a home and also having Talan. Lots of changes for you as well. Talan is one of the high lights for 2009. Grandpa is so happy to have him here.
Kellie and Ashley as well have had a heck of a year. But they to have grown in some real strong ways also. I know you plates are full with those darling boys and Mia. I am proud of the way you are holding it together. Thank you for being such a good example for the kids. It will pay off in the end. I promise......
Merry Christmas to every one and and may 2010 bring us all many blessing.

With this Thanksgiving I have remembered all of the reason I have to be THANKFUL. We have had a very trying year to say the least. And to be quiet honest I would rather not go over it one more time. I would rather look to the future and the year to come. With that said here is to 2010, maybe the road be bright and full of smooth roads ahead.
To EVERYONE I LOVE AND LOVE ME THANK YOU.........YOU HAVE HELPED MOLD ME TO WHAT I AM TODAY.